when her earth stood still

people always looked at Emily in the hallway. they would whisper sharpened words of pain behind there hands. Emily never knew what was so bad her. she was just different from all these preppy people. just because she wore band t-shirts and not Polo's doesn't mean she is a bad person. she wasn't all about the cars and the parties. she was all about the music. and there was one person in her world that understood that. Dan. he was the same way as her but she was a girl. they had be friends for years. they shared crayons in pre-school and notes in middle school. Dan would pick up Emily every morning in his black mustang that his parents got him for his 17th birthday. she would slid into the passnger seat and he was say "good morning sweetheart" with that cute little smile on his face. she loved that smile. she looked forwards every morning.

with that smile Emily couldn't lie. she wouldn't keep anything from him. but one thing...that fact that she was in love with Dan. she had be in love with him from the first day they met. she remembers it like it was yesterday. she was sitting on the play ground by herself look at all the other kids play there games. no one wanted to invite Emily in because she had glasses. she just sat there and looked at her shoes. and all of a sudden another pair of shoes came in to her eye view. she looked up and it was Dan. he asked her if she would play tag with him. and she said sure. and that was the day she saw that smile. the smile that make her giggle and laugh no matter what........



TO BE FINISHED LATER.....

S.O.S

Fuck Spanish! I hate it. It’s my 2nd year of taking Spanish one with the same fucking teacher and they think I am going to pass it this time. He can’t teach for shit. That’s why 3/4 of the people in his classes are taking it again. They should just fire his ass! We should learn something that is cooler like germen or something. I think that my school is the only school that has crap things to learn. Like come on who doesn’t know Spanish already and lives in the US! We might not know how to write shit down the right way. But I can ask if someone can speak English or....where is the bathroom......or stuff about food and family. Im good!
Jezz!!!!

I have been pretending all day to studying and all I have been doing it sitting in my room!!!

I have looked at these 4 walls for way to long. I need help to get out of this cage. Someone please save me. I can’t wait for superman or batman to come and save me. At this point in time ill take the guy who almost failed super hero class to get me out of this mess. Maybe if I send an SOS you’ll come but I don’t think so. no one ever comes for me.....no one... that worries me....will I be alone my whole life....and that’s when it hit me. That’s my biggest fear. Being alone for ever. I don’t think I could do it. I wouldn’t last......I know I wouldn’t last......

day 1

Hey...well this is my first blog so I don’t really know what to say... I found the website because of this kid Neil. He is really sick right now and I wanted to help his family with some kid words. But you need a blogging thingy to say something so I thought...well what the hell lets make one. Hahah so here it is.....

So I guess in here I (as this being my first one) I should say something about me.... hmmmm lets see here


Hi my name is Becca (yes as in Rebecca) I am 16 years old and I was open April 14 Th 1992. I am kind of tall (5'8 ish) and I have blonde hair and blue eyes.... I go to bound brook (shit whole of NJ) high school. I am counting down the days until I graduate and I am able to get out of this town. It’s so small. Everyone knows everyone’s business and shit so I am tried of all the drama and unnecessary shit. But there are 3 things that keep me sane here. 1. Music! Music is my whole life. I can’t go a day with out my iPod. People say that music can’t be the core of your life. Well im proof. It is my core to my life....

2. JACQUI! She is my best friend. She finishes my sentences and she understands me. We can rock out to almost everything......well everything hahah and we love Dane cook. We can say every line in his jokes. I love this girl to death and I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t see/ talk to her everyday....


3. My family. My family has been through so much shit in the past few months we have gotten a lot closer. And I love them. Even though my mom is a bitch and my dad is an asshole I love them to death and I am who I am today because of them (I don’t know if that is a good thing or not but whatever)


I can’t spell for shit and I talk way too much.....but that’s me. And if you don’t like it well get the fuck over yourself no ones perfect.

Ok well I think that’s enough for my first one


xoxo